Sunday, November 8, 2009

To you...

Dear my friend,

Thank you for sharing your problem with me today. I'm glad that you are still able to live your life healthily,although there might be something that I couldn't see from your face.I know it's not that easy, and you might be not that happy,like what you showed in front of me. I understand your feeling. Just want to say that, i know you can handle it very well,and when the time has come, you will know what should you do.Don't be afraid on that, as i will be your side always..Must always remember that, I will be your angel when you need one! Take good care of yourself. God and i will always bless you. You are a good person,doing lots of good things. You will get a better life in the future!

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Sharing...

Would like to share a korean song with you all...
It's theme song for a movie...
The lyrics is meaningful...
And the melody is just telling a story...
It tells my story...

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

人生,交叉点

人生,本来就是一出戏;
戏如人生,人生如戏;

原本不想再出演任何一部戏剧,但是,最后,还是接下来了!
这是一部贴近自己的戏剧....
不需要夸张的表情,对白....
只是,在做回自己!

其实,角色的性格,与我蛮像的!
同样的是,一个自作多情的人;
一个自以为是的人;
一个很单纯去相信事情的人;
一个可以付出一切的人;
到最后,得到的,是茫然....

人生,交叉点...
不同的点....
我依然停留在,原点.....
累了...
伤了...

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

笼儿的故事

从前,有一个鸟笼;
不知从何时,它,笼儿,都希望会有小鸟飞进它那毫不起眼的身躯里...
有一天,有一只小鸟,遇见了笼儿;
从那天起,鸟儿就住在笼儿的小身躯里,很快乐的...

直到,笼儿的门锁坏了;
喜爱自由的鸟儿飞不出去了...
一天又一天,鸟儿误以为笼儿要从此把它困住;
可惜,笼儿并不是那样的!
然而,鸟儿不再相信笼儿了...

就在某一也,笼儿的门突然打开了;
鸟儿就趁住这个机会,飞走了....
它,飞走了....
笼儿,只能眼睁睁的看着它飞去了...
笼儿,一直想对鸟儿说:我并不是要把你困住....
可是,笼儿,再也没有机会说任何东西了!
因为,它知道,鸟儿,一去,就不会再回头了!

笼儿,明白自己丑陋且狭小的身躯,再也不适合当鸟笼了...
它,已经坏了...
它的门,就这样,永远也不会再关上...
笼儿的生命,就快要随着残烂的身躯结束了;
此刻,它只想对鸟儿说:
"原谅...."

Sunday, July 19, 2009

-----Little Buddy----

如此的夜晚,心情依旧....
最近真的,太多东西发生了....
有些时候,真的会觉得,为何会这样呢?

现在的时间....
不足够...
我只能疯狂起来...
不管多么累.....

特别的是,今天要回去开会;
买了糖水给与我很有缘的little buddy;
好笑的是,他竟然买东西给我吃...
哈哈,这是我第一次听见little buddy主动买东西给buddy...
真的觉得,没有收错这位little buddy!!
觉得,有点感动...
能够在异乡遇到自己同乡的学弟...
他的微小举动,让我觉得,最近的一切,都是值得的!
沉默已久的心,就那么,一笑了....

现实总是这样的...
我不会怪任何人...
只要能做的,我都去做了...
时间,等我,可以吗?

Friday, July 3, 2009

不知道

J:你在做什么?
H:我。。。我不知道。。。
J::你怎么会不知道?!
H:我就是不知道嘛。。。
J:你,怎么了?
H:我,还是。。。没怎么呢。。。
J:看你现在的样子,像什么!!!
H:我。。。我能像什么呢?我。。。不知道。。。
J:不要这样了,好吗?
H:我。。。不知道。。。我。。。很复杂。。。我。。。
J:唉。。。(无言)

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

依旧-无题

去年的这个时候,我是刚踏进大学生活的新生;
一直很怕自己不能够适应...
但是,其实自己,真的还蛮强的嘛!哈哈!
一路给它过关斩站...
开心的,不开心的,都是那样着...

一年后,我又回到这个城市;
搬进了另一个环境,一个我将生活3念的环境...
我想,我可以适应的...
毕竟,已经没有事,是难倒我的...
这些日子,所发生的点滴,我依然存在脑海里;
是那么深刻的...
我以为,这些都是以为...
没想到,现在,其实与当初一样了...
还是一样...
其实,我真的是很傻的一个人...

此刻,对自己说,不会有了...

最近,睡眠有了严重的问题...
胃口也没有了...
现在的我,真的,令人讨厌了..

Thursday, June 25, 2009

突然很想写些东西,但是,并没有固定的题...
就是想要写当下的心情;

成绩,对一个学生来说,重要吗?!
对于家长来说,是重要的;
在他们的眼中,只要能够获得好成绩,证明自己的孩子有多么的聪明,将来的前与“钱”途一定光明一片!
对于学生而言,成绩,就是代表着自己的能力;
有的,是为了要讨好父母亲;
有的,是为了要争面子;
而有的,只是为将来的自己,寻找安稳的生活!

我,不是一个聪明的人;
我,不是一个学校的精英;
我,只是,完成自己的责任。

从小到大,自己的成绩,不算太出色,但是,也不差!
而自己,一直都以怕输的心情,撑下去!
怕输?!我怕输?!
或许,应该是,我喜欢逞强!
越是不能完成的事,我偏要去。。。

从小学,到中学,到最后,大学。。。
这种情况,严重了!
在别人的眼里,我是书呆子!为了书而活!为了成绩而活!
我,不是的。。。
真正的我,背后的我,不是这样子的。。。
为了责任,我必须。。。

拿到好成绩,开心,是因为,终于,自己的努力是没有白费的!
但是,更重要的是,有人,和你分享着当中的喜悦;
如果,没有了那个人的存在,
就算自己的成绩,是多么辉煌耀眼;
或许,快乐,就那么一秒;
之后,前所未有的失落感,就会覆盖过去了。。。
因为,一个人撑下这一切,当中的辛累,煎熬,只有自己才会明白。。。

成绩,并不重要;
重要的是,是否有人陪伴着自己,分享这一切!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

属于我们的爱

“你的姿态 你的青睐 我存在在你的存在..."
“可惜不是你 陪我到最后...”

看了一场3小时又40分钟的演唱会,只能说,感动!
一直以来,听歌,是我唯一的兴趣...
因为,总觉得,每首歌曲,都想说着一些故事;
有些,甚至唱着自己的故事..

梁静茹的歌曲,可以说是陪我长大...
她,不算是我的超级偶像(大家知道谁才是吧!)...
但是,都不停的在支持她!
因为,她真的是很棒!

这场演唱会,除了是我第一次现在听着静茹演唱她的名曲,也是,对我有着一定的意义!
而这些意义,其实,就是那么简单,不复杂....

除了感动,还有温馨....

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

不可思议之Unbelievable...

一夜未睡...
或许是噩梦的关系...
自己的心情,至今,还是平静不了...

一直在看着同一个网页,
那是我的吗?
那真的是我的吗?
很不实在的感觉...
有人在身边多好啊!可以告诉我那是真或假的?

但是,都是真的!
有点不可思议!
Unbelievable!!!

重要的是,我的努力,被认同了!!!

Monday, June 8, 2009

人生,有两好三坏


最近看了不少的故事,小说。。。
有些是真实,有些是虚构。。。

但是,不管是真实;还是虚构;
他们的故事,都有着一个共同点:人生!

九把刀有一本书著名:爱情的两好三坏;
但是,我想说的是,人生,也是有着两好三坏!

开始觉得自己的心境变老了,与实际年龄有点不符合(拜托,本人还是个年轻人!);
是好呢?还是不好呢?
就把它当作是好的吧,毕竟,看得一些事情,自己,再也不会去计较;
还是说,没有能力去与他人计较!
但是,某些事情,自己还是有着顽固的坚持;
只要你不抵触那个底线,那么,这个计时炸弹,也会乖乖的休息着....

见到了老朋友,当然是聊聊咱们的往事吧!
因为自己的性格,导致认识的人,是很少;
能够成为老朋友,就更加少之又少!
哈哈!
其实,就只有那么几年的时间而已;
但是,每当我们诉说那个时候的自己,突然会觉得,那些日子,真的离我们很远了。。。
犹如十年又十年。。。
真的,回不去了。。。
也有的是,不想再回去了。。。


喜欢,海....

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

对不起

一段很长的时间的挣扎,犹豫,不安。。。
想了又想,始终,还是没有结果。。。

从以前到现在,自己还是有着那样的性格;
别人看到,就会觉得,怎么那样着啊?!
我也想知道。。。

一个决定,去与不去,真的,不是那么容易决定的。
其实,一开始,自己的心是真的要去帮助别人,学习东西;
但是,后来,一连串的问题,让自己觉得,是否要重新想过呢?!

想了又想。。。
知道,这样者的退出,会让整组人都乱起来。。。
听起来,真的觉得自己很自私!
然而,自己却觉得,此刻的我,并没有那个信心与能量,去做好自己的本分!
朋友们,记得上次生活营的时候,我曾经说过,
“我不会做没有把握的东西,因为那样会让我很不安,很不好。。。”
现在,我真的没有之前的那种把握,而自己,也是给很多东西困挠着。。。
我不想拖累大家。。。
我不想因为我的私人问题,而搞砸大家的心血!
我不是伟大,也不是想要逃避,只是,我觉得,这样的决定,对自己,对大家,是好的!

这次,的确是我的错!
我不应该没有想清楚就答应你们。。。
但是,相信我,当初的我,真的是真心想要帮助大家的!
只是,现在,我的人,不能够与大家一起奋斗,
但是,我的心,一直陪伴着你们。。
我会给你们最大的支持!!!加油!!
你们是最棒的!
就算没有了我这个“废”人,我相信,你们会做得更好!!

Monday, June 1, 2009

她是谁?

已经很少去接触新的专辑,新的歌曲,除非是自己喜爱的那几位歌手。。。
今天想要和大家介绍这张专辑。。。
徐佳莹-第三届超级星光大道的冠军
从一开始,是因为她的自创曲-身骑白马,才开始留意她。。
之后的比赛,也有留意着;
她的声音,有着独特的魅力,每一首自创曲,她都用自己的声音,心情去演绎自己内心的故事。。
听完11首歌,觉得,她会是一个很有潜力的创作女歌手,加油!
每首歌曲,都是好听,又耐听。。

为大家推荐:身骑白马,圆舞曲,一样的月光,失落沙洲
#特别钟爱“失落沙洲”,歌词很贴切,有种莫名的落寞.....

Friday, May 29, 2009

坏的定义

一直在期待;
期待什么?

一直在等待;
等待什么?

我真的那么像坏人?!坏小孩?!坏男孩?!
坏的定义是?!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

觉得自己。。。
越来越弱了。。。
真的越来越弱了。。。

我从来没有想过要放假。。。
你想吗?

老朋友说,我是个完美主义者。。。
以前的我,选择不相信。。。
但是,现在的自己,却是个实实在在的完美主义者。。。

去年的这段时期,正是我的低潮期;
没想到,一年后,我依然堕入了这个低潮期!

“我不是个坚强的人,但是我必须要坚强,所以我学会让自己坚强起来”

Friday, May 22, 2009

一封信...

"突然,想起了你的笑容....
与大家开心玩闹的笑容....
与大家畅所欲言的笑容....
我觉得,那样,足够了...
能够看到你有那么的笑容,虽然不是因为我...
但是我是高兴的!
因为,
你快乐,所以我快乐!

你说,你累了;
我说,累了就休息吧!
你说,你害怕;
我说,有我在身边,别怕!
........

你说过的每一句话,
我都记得很清楚....
我一直都在那里....
当你厌倦了热闹的气氛;
当你想要寻找安静的时候;
当你想找个人依赖的时候;
我会在那儿等你!

当你需要我的时候,
我会出现,
伸出我那你不曾厌弃的手;
当你不需要我的时候,
我会静待在你身边....."

Monday, May 18, 2009

热浪岛之旅

热浪岛....
一个有着水蓝色的海水...
一朵又一朵的白云...
还有又白又细的沙粒...
真的很美!!!

三天两夜之旅,真的为我留下来许多很美丽的回忆!
第一次与米饭们的旅行,虽然途中有些不愉快的事情发生了,但是,大家都把不愉快的心情给发泄出来...
第一次潜水,与不同类型的鱼儿有着亲密的接触...
第一次看到那么靠近自己的珊瑚...
还有很咸的海水!哈哈!

虽然真的很累,但是,自己却有着新的体验!
不会游泳的我,却去潜水了...
努力地去掩饰或盖掉自己心中的不安,也挑战着自己的能力...
还是做到了...
可以说是固执吧...
不想被人否定...哈哈!!

突然觉得,自己能做的,就是去接受这一切!无条件的付出...

热浪岛,期待与你有令一次的约会!!!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

下一站——热浪岛

回到属于自己的地方。。。
家。。。
已经五天了。。。
然而,自己还在慢慢的适应着。。。

很奇怪吧。。。
从小长大的地方,现在,于我来说,竟然会有种陌生的感觉!
或许,真的,已经离开了一段时间。。。
竟然觉得,自己开始习惯了在外一个人的生活。。。
想找人聊天时就会有群“废人”和我聊“废话”。。。
想要安静读书时,就能够静静地坐在那儿。。。
虽然,还是会想到家。。。
可是,背后的原因,是在外头的我,真的很大压力。。。
家,很好的是,我不用理会别人的眼光,作自己爱做的事。。。

可是,慢慢的,家,似乎成为了我的避难所。。。
一个,让我能够逃避现实的地方。。。
是好事,还是坏事呢?!
我开始不了了。。

我想做的,只是。。。
好好地,去休息。。。
去充电。。。
去做自己想做的事。。。
去自己想要去的地方。。。

时间,真的不多了。。。
再过一阵子,我又要开始“发疯了”。。。
只想,好好地,去陪我身边的人。。。


下一站——热浪岛

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Holidays=No stress...

My second semester is finally come to the end..
Back to my hometown 2 hours ago...

And i started to wonder...
What would i do during this 8-weeks break?!

I have no idea...
Perhaps i would be staying at home and doing nothing...
Except going for trips...
I really don't have much things to do...

While others are damn hardworking of finding a job to earn pocket money...
I choose to rest...
It doesn't mean that i have lots of money..
Just that,that's the only period which i could really relax myself,without any stress...
Because i know,i will not be able to do that in the normal days..

Sounds stupid right?!
Yea,i told myself,next semester,i would be more crazy on my study...
I need to re-charge myself to the fullest...

I need energy...
I'm tired...

Friday, May 8, 2009

最后一夜

独自坐在房间...
没有其他人的存在....
真的很安静的一个夜晚...

大家都已经回到属于自己的地方...

最后一晚了...
之后应该是没有机会再次睡在这床上了....
想回初次到来的时候...
也是一段很长的时间了...
当初的自己,是多么害怕的...
没想到,就那么短短的几个星期,我就已经习惯了在这的生活....
这里的食物...
这里的湖泊...
这里的天气...
还有这里的人...

有着许多回忆的地方....
终于要离开了...

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

结束

原本八时三十分的考卷....
讲师迟到...
九点才到...
或许,这不是重要的吧!!

终于,
这一天....
终于到了!!!
第二学期,漫长的考试,终于完了!!!

14个星期的大学生活...
除了忙,还是忙...
自己,真的比上个学期来得更加大压力...
真的,不能喘气!
真的,很累!
有想过放弃,可是,又不想...

这个学期,的确给了我很多的回忆...

第一次,大型的舞台表演.....

第一次,24个学分学期...

第一次,把自己搞得精神崩溃...

第一次,不回学院...

第一次,承认...

这个学期,该说讨厌,还是喜欢呢?!

再见咯....

Monday, May 4, 2009

梦,醒了

原本昨天是最后一天,
因为一张纸,变成明天了!
心情开始轻松起来了....

然而,奇怪的,今天早上,我作梦了...
不是开心的梦...
而是难过...
我一直哭...
哭到醒了...
才发觉是梦!
但是,真的,很真实...
的确,那是我一直在想得一样东西,不想它发生...
结果,我可以从梦中,得知结果...
很难受...

真的,很难过...

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Resting

就这样,过了....
最难捱的四天....
终于过去了....

真的快要把自己搞疯了...
每天在说服自己是可以的...
但是还是超级担心的...

考完出来的心情,有好的,也有不好的..
或许是顾虑太多,觉得考得不好...

还有两张...
开始觉得累了...
需要休息...

Sunday, April 26, 2009

打仗

开始打仗了...
两张去了,剩下六张...
接下来的四天,四张不同类型的纸;
但是,都有着一个共同点,那就是,背!!!
一大堆纸摆在眼前,必须去了解,还要背...

开始回到之前的自己了...
好事?
应该是吧...
不然,我也不懂得怎样去解决这个问题...

重复问着自己一样的问题,始终,没有答案...

现实生活,就是现在而且真实的生活;
真实是,掩饰,是必须要的!
不管自己多么想让人知道,想大声宣布...
始终,因为一些理由,而必须要把一切自己想要,不想要...
吞进肚子里...
因为,这个世界不只是自己,还有着许多人;
他们,在观察着你...
他们,在试探着你...
只要一个错误,就会送上奇异的眼光看待你...

回到过去的自己,继续打仗吧!!!

Friday, April 17, 2009

Let's start to fight!

Suddenly,i realise that i missed a lot of things for the past 14 weeks...
Yes, i spent most of my time on study....
Before lectures,during lectures,after lectures,even weekend also the book or notes were in my hands...
I knew it's good so that i won't end up with stressed-up or panic feeling during study week and exam period...
But at the same time,i found that...
I lost a lot of memories..
Memories that coudn't be replaced by the excitement of getting a good result...
Like playing around the hostel with friends,chatting with them..
Or going out for a shopping...
I couldn't get this type of happiness and enjoyment from the books...
I seems to be isolated by other's world,or i should say..
I'm isolating myself from their "noisy" world...
I just feel tired...This is not the real of myself...
It has become a habit for me,to be so serious in everything...
I need to make some changes...
In an urgent need..

For the coming finals,i won't be panic...
It's better to be relaxed a bit so that the mind can function efficiently...
Yes,i must tell myself,
"Come on papers,I'm well prepared for killing you..."

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Wish me luck!!!

Next week,i'll be having my first paper for the final exam...
Just a few more days to go..
I should not be so panic and stress up myself,since i've done my revision for the papers,99%,shoudn't i?
But now it is worst than ever!
Nervous?Scare?Panic?Stress?
These are the feelings that i've faced lately...
The main reason is that,this semester is very tough,as i need to take 7 papers and each paper has its own difficulties,problems,and of cause the "thick" notes and books...
Since the first day of this semester,i already told myself that i need to do revision everyday and not to take part in so many activities,and i think i did it for the whole semester!
Now i've almost come to the end of semester and it's time to evaluate myself,on what i've been doing within that 14 weeks.
I should be glad that my midsem result is not bad,only one of the papers i was not satisfied on..Now,the final is just around the corner..
I just read through all the notes and books,that i've touched them for at least 1 time..
So,why would i feel panic and stress?!
Well,perhaps i give myself too much of pressure and too much of expectation on the results,as what my friends said..
But i haven't get the way....the way back to the real of myself...

Just wish me luck...7 papers..

Sunday, April 12, 2009

小瓜与我

从此以后,小瓜就会陪在我的身边....

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

黑色星期二

今天,或许又是我的“黑色星期二”吧!
遇到的,都不是好事.....

很少机会可以看到报纸...
今天,难得,给我拿到了...
却让我看到一则令我觉得超级难过的消息..
阿桑,一个因为“叶子”这首歌曲成名的歌手...
于昨天病逝了....
已经很久没有听到她的消息,原以为她决定不再出专辑...
怎么知道,就这样,离开了我们...
还记得,第一次见到她,她是多么的友善...
声音,是多么沧桑....
她的歌曲,一直陪伴着我...
每当我难过时,总会想到她的歌曲...
一把感动人心的声音,就这样,从此消失于我们的世界了...
希望她在那儿,能够忘掉一切不开心的事,开心的去当她的天使...

真的,人生无常...
没有人能够预知自己的未来...

刚从学校回来,却发现,铅笔盒,竟然还留在实验室!!!!
我的天啊!今天到底是什么日子?!
最近的我,到底怎么了?!
已经不是第一次了...
祈求明天,我还能拿回它...

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Lost...

Suddenly...
I feel very tired...
Tired of doing all the things that i've stressed on...

I don't know how to continue it...
Can i stop ?

The answer is...TRY TO THINK OF YOUR FAMILY BACKGROUND!!!

Friday, March 27, 2009

祝福

一个月了...
再次回到自己的家...
是真正的家...
好长的一段时间哦...
开始认不清曾经对于我来说是多么熟悉的地方...

清明节的来临,想起好久都没有探望过爸爸了...
想告诉他,最近的我...
我的改变...
我的不安...
我的难过...
我的喜悦...

最近身边的朋友们,突然都开始有了自己的幸福了...
真的很替他们开心...
放心啦..
我不会妒忌你们...
祝福你们!!!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

又是灰灰的一天...
或许是被早上所知道的事情影响到吧!
这整天,都处于闷闷的状态...
很不想这样着...
奈何,却会如此!!!

和朋友去逛一个挺出名的夜市...
可是,心情还是如此...
好辛苦...
加上知道某些事情后,心情,更加直线下跌到谷底...
讲错地方,还得大家走一圈...
差点就给车撞到...
真是....

真的必须要这样吗?
不停的在问自己...
答案是...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

我懂

曾经以为,自己不会再有那么的一天...
有那么的一个机会....

觉得现在的自己,就好像在梦中...
多么希望能够一直呆在这个梦里...

其实,最幸福的事....
就是...
珍惜眼前人....

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

分数

无意中,让我知道了自己的分数...
心情,的确很差...
虽然都是A,但是却是刚好而已....
我知道,能够有这种成绩是很好了...
朋友说的,没有人会去在意你的分数,因为最终还是看grade的...

我,就是两样并重的人...
朋友的分数比我高...
我很替他们高兴...
我只是发自己脾气,因为,我知道我能够做的和他们一样好...
其实,我并没有妒嫉他们...
我已经学会不去和任何人比较...
敌人,就只是自己....
我很生气,自己为何会如此?!
我很懊恼自己....

朋友们,我并没有妒嫉你们的分数..
你们的确比我聪明,努力...
明白吗?
我说的,只是开玩笑而已...

我只是发自己脾气而已...

Saturday, March 14, 2009

How are you?

Suddenly, i feel like wanna talk to someone...
Someone that is now in heaven,enjoying his happier life there....
Quite a long time i didn't talk to him....
I wanna tell him...

"Don't worry,I am strong enough to handle and overcome everything...
Since the day you left me,i've learnt to be independent...
You told me, as a guy,we should stay stronger no matter how worst is it...
I'm not the child that you saw last time anymore...
I'm very good here...
Able to do things effectively...
I have a lot of friends..."

But how are you lately?
Sorry for couldn't talk to you for such a long time....
I know i'm not a good son...
Sorry....

Friday, March 13, 2009

失去记忆....

发觉到,最近,自己经常忘记...
忘记带学生卡(好多次)...
忘记还东西给人....
读过的东西,却忘记了....
忘记....
这个学期,如果,都忘记,那么,我的结果,会有多恐怖呢?!

有着许多事情,
仍然在自己的记忆里...
想要忘掉,却依然存在...

开始害怕...
开心的回忆,也会慢慢的给我忘记了....

失去记忆,是一件很可怕的事情....
难道,真的是累坏了自己?!

Monday, March 9, 2009

其实幸福很简单...

还记得那一天,
一封被遗弃的信,
让自己的心中有了一个阴影,
一个至今仍然无法离去的阴影。。。

想了好久,
突然觉得,
幸福,其实是很简单;
要打开自己的心门,才能够看见幸福。。。

钥匙,我已经找到了。。。
如何去打开它?!
还是得靠自己的努力。。。

Thursday, March 5, 2009

My Way

Tired days...
Not only physically but mentally too...
Sometimes i wonder, why should i be like that?
Those assignments, presentations, reports....I've fed up with that!!!
But still, i need to continue it....
It's my way...
The way that i've chosen for myself...

Saturday, February 28, 2009

再见.....

突然,很想写下一些感觉.....

看了一部电影....

一部,令我有说不出的感觉....

“小时候的寂寞,是因为没有朋友........
长大后的寂寞,是比没有朋友更加寂寞........”

有爱,就有希望.....
如果真的爱一个人,你会愿意吗?
你会愿意的看着他/她从你身边离开吗?
你会释怀他/她的离开吗?
有谁,会明白呢?
一些事情,别人是不可能了解....
那种感觉,是可怕的.....
这世界,有,有可能的事吗?
没有的话....
要怎么走下去呢?

主角,笑着流泪....
因为,他懂了这一切....
他感谢这一切,同时,也想这一切说再见....

微笑着,再见....
或许,是最好的.....

就算他/她不曾离开....
可是,
你终究会慢慢的让他/她离开.....
你,不是忘记他/她....
而是,明白到....
他/她终究不是属于你的....
有一天,你与他/她的距离,会越来越远的....

因为,终究,还是必须清醒着.....

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Sharing..

Here's the pictures that i've taken recently....

Dragon...

Having dinner while looking at the sea...

I like the blue sky...



Such a high-calorie dinner!!!
But it was great...


This is banana smoothie,which i did it during lab! It was delicious!

Another home-made pudding...for the very first time i made pudding..
And my friends said: "It's very delicious!"

Life

Finally,the disastrous week is gone......
Again,i was proved to be very STRONG (hm,not only me,but JPD's students)...
We're managed to face n finish 6 types of exam papers within 4 days! It was a huge success!
Well,just after the exam,i think i had an enjoyable yet crazy weekend...
On last friday,our paper was till 5 something and after that we've decided to go to watch a movie! Since we were so hungry at that time,we've decided to have our dinner first n thus we've chosen a 850pm movie-The Curious Case of Benjamin Burton,which we thought its duration time should be about one hour something only! But,it was really out of our expectation..
It was about two hours and 30 minutes and by the time we finished it ,it was already 1145pm! And our hostel's gate will be closed at 12am!

We wondered,should we go back?! Then,someone said...

"Why don't we go to sing k?!"

It was a great idea,since we've finished the exam and really need to release all the stresses...
That night,we sang k until 4am,then we went to a nearby McD and chit-chat while waiting for 6am to come...

In the end,we were back to our hostel,at 7 something....

Which means that we didn't sleep for the whole night!!!

And once i reached hostel,i need to take a bath and wash my cloths within 45 minutes,since i was going to malacca...hahaha...

It was a great weekend..
In Malacca,my dearly brother brought me to different places,like watched the sunset,beach....

That's the feeling i couldn't get in the city...

It might be a boring place for others,but for me,i like the moments in malacca...

For the first time,i had my dinner in front of the sea...

It's a peaceful life that i wished to get....

Is it very hard?! I wonder...




Let's talk about the movie that i watched on friday!
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, a movie from Brad Pitt....
Well,before that,i thought it should be another "artistic" movie and quite bored to watch it...
But after spending two hours and 46 minutes inside the cinema hall,i think,it's worth!
The storyline is great,as in you won't feel sleepy at all from the beginning till the end of the movie! With a great theme-Life is always unpredictable!!!
Yes,you will never know what is the next! You should appreciate every moment that you had in your life,and let it be inside your heart and mind!

I woudn't talk much on the story,but i hope you all can go to watch it. It's really a meaningful movie. Why i said so?

You will get the answer after watching it.....
*It's time to re-start my engine,since i've rest well for this two days! Assignments,reports,presentations,and FINAL....

Monday, February 16, 2009

Fight+ing..

Figthing period = 17/2/09-20/2/09
For the first paper which i had done on this morning,the result is...i'm not satisfied with myself....haiz..
Got 5 more papers to go...
Work harder!!!!

Friday, February 13, 2009

Hate

Still,things are happening...
Something that I wishes not to be happen,is just around the corner...
Next week,I think i will be like a "studying machine"....
Just try to imagine that,you have to take 6 papers in 4 days,and eac paper has at least 4 topics to study!
What makes the matter worse is that,i'm going to have 2 papers per day for 2 consecutive days!!
I really feel hatred with that kind of time-table...We are not machine,k?!
And it's a torture to know that others only need to take 3 0r 4 papers.....
Well,the disastrous week is coming...
Friends told me,just give up for the non-important papers..
But,for me,every paper is just the same and i will not let myself to give up anyone of them..Never!!Even though i might be very suffered,but i won't give up!!!

Sunday, February 8, 2009

加油吧!!

一个人,搭着轻快铁....
一个人,搭着巴士....
一个人,来到了一个不曾来过的地方....
很兴奋,紧张,害怕....
买了一杯从未吃过的雪糕....
望着人群,来去匆匆....
好久,都没有这个感觉了....
暂时的放下书本的压力,不去想它...
多么希望,这种感觉不会溜走...
其实,我要的,就只是这么简单的生活....
然而,自己,却输在自己的心...
每当踏进那个门口,再好的感觉,心情,也会转换成令人毛骨悚然的...

好朋友都相继离去;
他们,都往着自己的梦想飞去!
有点难过,可是,却替他们感到无比的荣耀与开心...
毕竟,他们都有着那个勇气,坚持去踏出这个地方...
朋友,加油吧!!!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

无力

不安的感觉,一直在侵袭着我的脑袋,我的心。。。
不是别的不安,而是自己给与自己的不安。。。
彷徨,无助。。。
仍然,必须要以笑迎人。。。
喜欢独处。。。

我,撑得住吗?!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Reality...

"Goodbye,holidays...."
That's what inside my mind at this moment!
Finally i'm back to my hostel,which means that my one-week holidays has come to the end!
Chinese New Year used to be one of my favorite festivals,since i could eat a lot of delicious food,buy new cloths and of cause meet up with my dearly relatives and friends!
Unfortunately,this year,i was fall into a sick since the day i arrived at my home!
Because of the serious-flu and also the tooth-gum pain, i coudn't eat much of things during this chinese new year and of cause it made me not in a mood to go anywhere!
Perhaps,due to the "sickness mind", i started to think a lot of things..somethings that can made me down or stressed up myself in the end! I knew i shouldn't be like that but things were just happened!Within this few days,i became a moody person,just locked myself inside the room,and holding those disgusting notes books...I wonder,could i remember all the things that i have read through?!I could..
This year,i didn't meet up with much of my friends,since most of them are quite busy and some of them just have only 2 days for this chinese new year!
Well,that's reality!
Reality is...something that we must accept it...

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Years...

Today is already the second day of our chinese new year...
Since months ago,i was already waiting for it,as in i will be having my one week holiday and thus i can run away from the hostel!I was waiting for it..
But then,since the day i came back to my hometown,i just found that....It's not the feeling that i want...
I wanted and i hoped to relax myself,without using my mind for this whole week holiday..But sometimes things just happened unpredictably...
Perhaps i was really too busy and tired for the past few weeks and finally,i was fall into a sick,and it became even worse when i'm back to my home...
I started to think on it....
Is it the things that i hope to get? !
I mean...
I aready started to feel afraid on it...
As others said,he or she will be in a state of depression or started to become moody once they are having such a bad feelings...
I know,perhaps it's due to my sickness mind...
Whatever it is...
I just hope to get back myself...
Now,everyday is just the same for me...
No matter where i am,i will still be the same...
When?! Where?!
I don't know....

*But i'm wishing everyone will have an enjoyable chinese new year!!Don't act like me!Hehe....

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Friday, January 23, 2009

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Wow...Chinese New Year is coming soon...
Just one more day to go....
And finally,i came back to my hometown last night!

Hope you all will have a wonderful chinese new year and enjoy the days with your family members and friends....
Take this chance to show your cares and love to them....

Monday, January 19, 2009

演出成功!!

终于,演出了。。。
这次,可以说是我的第一次这么大型的一个戏剧表演,而且是有很多对白,算是“大大大配角”吧!!哈哈。。。
我呢,可算是卖点之一。。。因为,角色实在是太搞笑呢,而且,那个妆,还真的是。。。。
第一次的演出,我反而没有一丝的紧张,害怕;
很多人都说,我演的实在是很放,比彩排来的好!
的确,在那一刻,我并没有想太多,只是希望,演好这个戏剧,让人家都有着个深刻的印象!
准备过程的确是很辛苦。。。
课业繁重,睡眠时间又短。。。真的,很崩溃!
而且,其间还要面对人家给与我的一些“眼光”。。。
我觉得,自己真的是变得很放了!
这次的舞台表演,让我变得不再怯台,反而会把握时间去做出最好的表现!
我想,昨晚,我的确做到了这一点!!

终于,有时间好好的休息。。。
可以温习功课。。。
上课不会打瞌睡了吧。。。

Saturday, January 17, 2009

On show tonight...

Ladies and gentlemen, the show must go on!!!

第十届国大分校新春文娱晚会 PESTA ANG POW KE-10
日期:18.01.2009
时间:7.15pm
地点:DSG KOLEJ TUN SYED NASIR,KAMPUS KL UKM, JALANTEMERLOH.

当晚将会有很多精彩的节目哦! 请期待大家的来临咯。。。当晚的穿着要 服装整齐,端庄就可以了。入场是免费的!

让我们大家一起庆祝这盛大的新春佳节 !欢迎欢迎咯!

You all are invited to attend this event,as in i am one of the performers for the night!
Mimi,ganbateh! Show out the best of yours to others!
On show....

Friday, January 9, 2009

嘿,最近你怎么变得那么孤独了?

朋友的突然一句话。。。
对啊,觉得自己还真的变得有点孤僻了。。。
身心疲累的我。。。
在多人面前总会出现很活泼的一面,可是,始终,一个人的时候,就变得不想说话了。。。
朋友说,怎么我看起来这么大压力?而且,脸都很臭。。。
我。。。我知道。。。
我在对自己发脾气。。。
为什么自己总是那样的?!
我好对不起我自己。。。
总觉得,出现了很多的问题,我真的很气自己。。。

Monday, January 5, 2009

迷路

迷路了。。。
迷失自己。。。
好累哦。。。
真的,好累哦。。。
当初的你,去了哪里?
不要走啊。。。。

Thursday, January 1, 2009

4H+1D

For the very first time in my life,i've joined others for a new year countdown...
It was fun,as i've never been involved in this type of countdown activities in my hometown...
The night was just perfect and we enjoyed very much,especially the moments we were in the cafe,right?!Haha...
The first day of year 2oo9,we were watching our idol's movie together and of cause our own gathering just after the movie...
It's my honour and pleasure to have known you all...You guys are just perfect!!!
Hope you all enjoyed the day too..

In a state of 4H+1D....
Should i ?