Resting

就这样，过了....
最难捱的四天....
终于过去了....

真的快要把自己搞疯了...
每天在说服自己是可以的...
但是还是超级担心的...

考完出来的心情，有好的，也有不好的..
或许是顾虑太多，觉得考得不好...

还有两张...
开始觉得累了...
需要休息...

打仗

开始打仗了...
两张去了，剩下六张...
接下来的四天，四张不同类型的纸；
但是，都有着一个共同点，那就是，背！！！
一大堆纸摆在眼前，必须去了解，还要背...

开始回到之前的自己了...
好事？
应该是吧...
不然，我也不懂得怎样去解决这个问题...

重复问着自己一样的问题，始终，没有答案...

现实生活，就是现在而且真实的生活；
真实是，掩饰，是必须要的！
不管自己多么想让人知道，想大声宣布...
始终，因为一些理由，而必须要把一切自己想要，不想要...
吞进肚子里...
因为，这个世界不只是自己，还有着许多人;
他们，在观察着你...
他们，在试探着你...
只要一个错误，就会送上奇异的眼光看待你...

回到过去的自己，继续打仗吧！！！

Let's start to fight!

Suddenly,i realise that i missed a lot of things for the past 14 weeks...
Yes, i spent most of my time on study....
Before lectures,during lectures,after lectures,even weekend also the book or notes were in my hands...
I knew it's good so that i won't end up with stressed-up or panic feeling during study week and exam period...
But at the same time,i found that...
I lost a lot of memories..
Memories that coudn't be replaced by the excitement of getting a good result...
Like playing around the hostel with friends,chatting with them..
Or going out for a shopping...
I couldn't get this type of happiness and enjoyment from the books...
I seems to be isolated by other's world,or i should say..
I'm isolating myself from their "noisy" world...
I just feel tired...This is not the real of myself...
It has become a habit for me,to be so serious in everything...
I need to make some changes...
In an urgent need..

For the coming finals,i won't be panic...
It's better to be relaxed a bit so that the mind can function efficiently...
Yes,i must tell myself,
"Come on papers,I'm well prepared for killing you..."

Wish me luck!!!

Next week,i'll be having my first paper for the final exam...
Just a few more days to go..
I should not be so panic and stress up myself,since i've done my revision for the papers,99%,shoudn't i?
But now it is worst than ever!
Nervous?Scare?Panic?Stress?
These are the feelings that i've faced lately...
The main reason is that,this semester is very tough,as i need to take 7 papers and each paper has its own difficulties,problems,and of cause the "thick" notes and books...
Since the first day of this semester,i already told myself that i need to do revision everyday and not to take part in so many activities,and i think i did it for the whole semester!
Now i've almost come to the end of semester and it's time to evaluate myself,on what i've been doing within that 14 weeks.
I should be glad that my midsem result is not bad,only one of the papers i was not satisfied on..Now,the final is just around the corner..
I just read through all the notes and books,that i've touched them for at least 1 time..
So,why would i feel panic and stress?!
Well,perhaps i give myself too much of pressure and too much of expectation on the results,as what my friends said..
But i haven't get the way....the way back to the real of myself...

Just wish me luck...7 papers..

小瓜与我

从此以后，小瓜就会陪在我的身边....

黑色星期二

今天，或许又是我的“黑色星期二”吧！
遇到的，都不是好事.....

很少机会可以看到报纸...
今天，难得，给我拿到了...
却让我看到一则令我觉得超级难过的消息..
阿桑，一个因为“叶子”这首歌曲成名的歌手...
于昨天病逝了....
已经很久没有听到她的消息，原以为她决定不再出专辑...
怎么知道，就这样，离开了我们...
还记得，第一次见到她，她是多么的友善...
声音，是多么沧桑....
她的歌曲，一直陪伴着我...
每当我难过时，总会想到她的歌曲...
一把感动人心的声音，就这样，从此消失于我们的世界了...
希望她在那儿，能够忘掉一切不开心的事，开心的去当她的天使...

真的，人生无常...
没有人能够预知自己的未来...

刚从学校回来，却发现，铅笔盒，竟然还留在实验室！！！！
我的天啊！今天到底是什么日子？！
最近的我，到底怎么了？！
已经不是第一次了...
祈求明天，我还能拿回它...

Lost...

Suddenly...
I feel very tired...
Tired of doing all the things that i've stressed on...

I don't know how to continue it...
Can i stop ?

The answer is...TRY TO THINK OF YOUR FAMILY BACKGROUND!!!