Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Let it be...

Well,my blog is not updated for a few days ad..
Guess what was i doing?
Just bcoz that i'm too busy on holding da notes n books for 24 hours per day...
Just did some unusual things,or smtg tat was out of expectation a few days ago...
Guess wat?
Sitting in KL CENTRAL from 1130am till 8pm..I was wondering how could i do that..
Of course i won't waste my time by jus sitting there,n there's no a seat for me too..
Jus took out da notes,n doing da same things again...
Is it da life tat i want?hahaha..
Only for that particular time,i guess..but lately,i omos locked up myself in da room everyday..
I noe it's not good...but somehow,i stil ned to force myself to do that..c..is "force"..

Something that is not belong to u,u wil never get it,no matter how hard u r trying to do that...
I'm fully understand this phrase..
Tired of continuing the road ad..
Jus let it be...
I shud...

Friday, October 24, 2008

Goodbye,my love!!!

最后一天了。。。
随着早上的presentation的完美结束,我的大学生涯的第一个学期,就这样结束了。。。
接下来,就是要准备考试。。。
真的,时间,来去匆匆。。。
看回当初的自己,傻傻的,什么都不懂,且很怕事的样子;
就在这短短的3个月时间,我变了很多!
我做了很多以前一直都不敢,且不会做的事情。。。
我变的更勇敢,更坚强,不再畏缩。。。
有勇气,在人群中讲出自己的心底话。。。
一切的包袱,都抛开了。。。
不再理会是与非,把自己最好的一面勇敢表现出来!!
谢谢你们,因为你们,我变了!
考试,我要来了。。。
等着瞧吧!!
第一学期,再见!!
Goodbye,my dearly first semester!!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

休息,是为了走更长远的路....

已经一个星期的感冒。。。
我,至今天,才去看医生。。。
只是觉得,它会好的。。。
但是,事与愿违。。。
终于,还是看了。。。
吃了药,觉得要睡了。。。
就断断续续睡了3个小时吧。。。
或许是药效吧,至今,脑袋还是恍惚的。。。
身体,散散的。。。
原以为,要继续读下去,突然觉得,休息,是重要的!
还是放自己一天假期吧。。。
毕竟,这场病的起因也是因为过去的我太拼了,并没有足够的休息。。。

*早知道就不要吃拿个药啦,搞得我现在还是处于恍神中。。。

Saturday, October 18, 2008

哑掉了!!!

疯狂的夜晚。。。
似乎想要甩开这一切。。。
忘情的跳动着,呐喊着。。。
突然,有一种莫名的悲哀。。。
跳完了,也喊完了。。。
剩下的,只有疲惫的身躯,和久违的病,再加上一把几乎哑掉的嗓子。。。
看着照片,熟读着每一幕。。。
原来,我累了。。。

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

sICk...

Raining season...
Raining days...
I'm getting to fall in a sick soon...nope..i'm in a sick now!!
Although i'm not as busy as i used to be for the past few months,still,i'm having a lot of things in my hands!
The daily activity that i must do-STUDY!! Actually my final exam will be only held on next month,and i will have one week holiday,which called study break,for me to do revision,i just can't control myself,or in another way to say that,i couldn't let myself to put down the books!!
Even my friends also saying that i'm a too crazy and putting too much of pressure on myself...haiz...i know..it's my problem..
Just that i don't wish to waste any time,since i'm not as smart as others...
I got my result for the other subjects a few days ago! For the "useless" subject,which i thought i will be failed on it,surprisingly,i got B for it...
Thanks God!
However,for another subject,which took me 4 credit hours for this semester,i only managed to get a B for it...
Since my result is so bad,how come that i don't study like a crazy people?!
Well,i know,i should relax myself,and now i'm in an ill too...stress is the main problem,i guess...
Just hope everything will be fine soon...
I'll be good!

Monday, October 13, 2008

又是,雨天!!!
我的心情,似乎已经慢慢的不受控制了。。。
最近,真的,自己很不想,不想有着这样的感觉;
可是,我却一直被这种心情苦苦的绑着!
曾经喜欢的雨天,如今,已经变成了“帮凶”。。。
很多事情,很多感觉,都是因为雨天而给拉出来了。。。
真的,很不好受!
我,一直以来,都坚持着许多东西;
或许,就是因为我的性格,常常把自己逼得疯掉去了。。。
还以为,那种心情,已经过去了,但是,似乎,我错了!
我真的很不想。。。
但是,我却做不到!
因为,我不想。。。
就让自己在这段时间,疯掉去吧。。。
我已经不能再去控制自己了。。。
很想释放这一切。。。

Saturday, October 11, 2008

落地生根

舞台剧,终于在一片感人的气氛下,落幕了;
也为“国大中秋”画下一个完美的句点!
坐在那儿,观赏着朋友们每晚练习到凌晨时分的成果,甚至还放弃难得的假期,我觉得,是值得的!真的,非常值得!
对于朋友们的演出,我真的很替他们高兴,因为他们的努力,是没有白费的!
一开始,眼泪已经在我的眼眶中打转,可惜,最后,并没有流下来。。。
因为,这是我对自己的约定!
或许,剧本,与我自己的故事有点相似,还是,最近所发生的事情,把我压得。。。
落地生根。。。

听着“陌生人”,突然有一句话,出现了。。。

"I'll be your angel when you need one......"

Thursday, October 9, 2008

失望,并不是偶然的.....

看似平静的海,其实,你不会知道,下一秒的它会否卷起大浪,还是,浪一直都在平静的海面下不停的旋转着,就等着那么的一个机会!
终于,时间,是最好的证明!原以为,我们,是最好的!
但是,还是,被证实了,事实并不以为然。。。
我,真的开始觉得,自己,一直以来都是那个自以为是的人。。。
原来,一切,都是虚幻的。。。
因为这件事,似乎,彼此间的裂痕已经慢慢的扩大了。。。
我能够修补吗?!
答案是。。。不能!
每个人,都有着自己的思想,性格;我们,永远都不能够去控制他人的思想。。。
也不能够期盼人家会对你所做出的一些努力给与支持。。。
我了。。。
只是,突然觉得,失望。。。
觉得,没有那个力去维护着一些事情;或许,我就是个白痴!
大家,放心吧,没有下一次了。。
不会有任何人能够强迫你们做任何事情了。。
真的,这几个月所累积起来的压力,不开心的,愤怒的,已经快要接近底线了。。
双眼,已经麻痹了。。。
是时候,忘掉一切了。。。

Monday, October 6, 2008

Shock......

After having two weeks holiday,finally,my hectic and busy university life,has started again!
Today,is my first day coming back to my campus,my lecture halls,and also meet back my dearly coursemates! Very surprise to see that most of them have changed a new look,like dye their hairs or changed her hair style!Glad to know that most of them were enjoying their holidays( since none of them were fully focussed on study for that two weeks,haha!!)
By the way,i was shock with two "big" news,or i would say it's kind of "good news"!
Firstly,when i was in the lecture hall,waiting for my lecturer,my coursemate told me that we can get to know our mid-term exam result and it's my major subject-pemakanan....I was so nervous and excited by that time,and when i checked it:
"Yes! I did it!"..hehe..i got A for my major subject,and this is the only subject that i feel confident on,luckily,my efforts were paid off...Good!
But for the rest of the 4 subjects,i had no idea on it....Hope it won't be too bad!!
The second news that shocking me was,once again,i'm selected to be one of the actors for Pesta Angpau Drama 2009!!
Again,it proved that i'm really "good in acting",although i was not!!
Well,my busy life is starting again,as i need to prepare myself for the final exam while involving different activities,like drama...but luckily my time table is not so packed as few months ago..so thanks god!!
So,wish me luck!!

Friday, October 3, 2008

~深呼吸~

老朋友的聚会,不是随性,也不是偶然的。。。
彼此有缘,才能够相聚。。。
见了一群就没相见的朋友,听了他们的故事,开心的,还是不开心的;学业上,爱情上,还是人缘上的问题;
听着听着,突然觉得,我们真的是好朋友啊,连遇到的问题都是一模一样,真是搞笑极了!!!
仍然,从朋友中听到“喜讯”,哈,真的要恭喜她啊!
突然想起朋友的一句话,我们回来的目的,其实就是要躲避现实。。。想一想,也是的!
在车上,不知怎么的,突然有点喘不过气来,好像有着一块巨大无比的石头把我的心给深深地压住了。。。那种感觉,很难受!
不想被哭泣捆绑住,不想被眼泪淹没;
那天对自己许下的承偌,我不能够忘记,也不想去违背。。。
深呼吸,就给它压住吧。。。
我一定能够撑下去的!!!